03/07/2000 Tuesday Morning
Hey there!
Well, today was the weekly weigh-in. I stayed the same. After falling off of the wagon, like I did, I actually feel pretty good about it. That's water under the bridge now. I'm really charged up to do this. I survived youth group last night without having any of the ever-present sweets. I have a 1 liter bottle I'm using for water at work. I'm drinking 1 before lunch and 1 after lunch - to get all of my water in.
I'm really notivated right now. I'm taking it one step at a time. I'm not in a race - there's 8 lbs less of me then when I started!
Marc bought a new Jeep and we're going to pick it up tonight! I'm almost as excited as he is. It's like I'm getting a new car too (without the car payment *smile*). After work I'm going to exercise for 30 minutes on the treadmill and meet him at the dealership.
Thanks to everyone who sent me such encouraging messages while I was in my weight-loss funk. It really helped pull me through. I'm back on track now and have learned a few things about why I do the things I do. Losing weight will not solve my issues, but by addressing the things in my life that are contributing to my habits, I'll be getting thinner and smarter... ;)
We can do this!!!
- Beth
Here I am again! I forgot to mention that I took my measurements when I went to my sister's house. I'm going to post them on this site (warning! They are not pretty!) and measure my progress there too. I haven't decided how often to update them. I want to make sure there's enough time in between for a change. What do you think?
I'm wearing another pair of jeans today that used to be tight and now are pretty comfy. Yay me! I also forgot to mention that the weather here is so nice these last few days that I've been able to get out and walk. Winter is so hard - I'm pretty active in the summer - hiking, biking, etc... but when it's cold out I hibernate with food. I love that we're having such beautiful weather in March (I live in Chicago!).
03/08/2000 Wednesday Morning
Good Morning!
I can't believe this beautiful weather. I took a 40 minute walk last night after dinner - it was wonderful! Marc picked up his new Jeep from the dealership last night too. We went for a long drive in the country. The weather and his new Jeep has me day-dreaming about the camping and hiking we'll do this summer in Wisconsin. We've decided to go to Quetico Provincial Park in Canada again this year.
This time do a different route. In case you didn't catch it in my journal, we went there last year. It's a canoe trip down through the backwoods by a series of connected lakes, rivers and waterways. It takes a week and it's completely remote. We carry our canoe and all of our gear along with us. It was the hardest thing I've ever done, but it felt wonderful. I think that experience
played a big part in having the confidence to get in shape once and for all. The pictures from last year are pretty bad. No one was around, and it was so warm, I'm wearing tank tops and swimsuits - not a pretty sight. I would love to have pictures this year that I can feel good about.
Yesterday I was within points, exercised and drank enough water to sink the Titanic (well, almost). So much of this process is having confidence in myself. I know I;ve said it over and over, but I am the only one who can cause me to fail - and I am the one who can make this a success.
Learning more about myself, why I do the things I do, getting my whole life to a place I can feel comfortable with and proud of - that's what will lead to a body I can feel proud of. A body I can trust to be able to keep up with the active things I want to do in my life.
To finally enjoy vacation pictures, to wear clothes that show off my healthy body, not hide it.
To be strong and healthy so that when I have children someday (I'm already 32) that I will be in good shape to handle it. I want
to develop good habits so that I can pass them on to my children and they won't have to battle this the way I do.
I was watching a show about people who lost a lot of weight and one of the ladies said the life-changing moment for her was when her 6 year old daughter said that she didn't want her to come to the school because the other kids teased her about having the "Fat Mommy".
When I heard that, my stomache flipped. I want my children to be proud of me.
It probably sounds silly that I'm talking so much about children I don't even have - but it really is an important reason for making these changes now.
I'm so thankful that I was able to post this journal. It really is making a difference. I'm not the kind of person that feels comfortable sitting in a WW meeting with a bunch of people. This journal is giving me the support from others who are fighting the same good fight and the accountability that I need.
Yesterday I followed the plan perfectly. I am in a great mental state to make these changes. I am slowly identifying and addressing the other issues in my life that contribute to my weight problem.
We're getting better every day!!
- Beth
03/09/2000 Thursday Morning
Good Morning!
I'm having such a good day so far. I woke up a little bit early this morning and took a brisk 10 minute walk around my neighborhood. Brisk because it's cold outside again!
I am not - repeat - not a morning person. I really feel good about accomplishing that in the morning. Yesterday I was within points and drank all of my water again. Tonight I'm meeting Marc at the gym.
I'm really on a roll now!
My newest challenge is my trip to San Francisco. I don't remember if I mentioned it in an earlier journal, but I'm going there for CMA training on cost accounting systems for 3 days next week.
Marc and I are going to make a little vacation of it - my training is Mon-Weds, so he's flying out on Tuesday night and we're taking vacation days for the rest of the week.
My official weigh-in this week will be Sunday morning before I leave. I don't know if there will be a scale available at the hotel, and if there is, it might be off by a lb or 2 either way. I don't want to be disappointed, or get my hopes up, so I'm just going to weigh-in early on my own scale.
It will be a challenge trying to stay on points and eating in restaurants. I want to have a balance between staying on plan and enjoying the food on vacation. We're planning to do a lot of walking and hopefully there will be a gym at the hotel. Surely I can find some middle ground - queen of extremes that I am! :)
It's cold outside today, we all knew the warm weather wasn't here to stay. I like cold with snow, but cold and rainy I could do without. One of my friends just told me that my pants are getting baggy in the butt - yippy!!
When I was visiting my sister, we exchanged the gifts we're going to open at each 5lb weight loss. I've decided to do my 5-pounders when I break through a 10's digit, meaning 189, 184 and so on. I just might get to open one on Sunday!
Today I got up early and walked in the morning. Yesterday I drank all of my water and stayed within points. I'm learning to be content with this taking some time. It's a lifelong change, so it's okay if it takes a while.
Let's keep going! We're doing it!
- Beth
03/10/2000 Friday Afternoon
Hi Everyone!
I'm SO busy at work today. I have to get everything wrapped up because I'll be out of the office all next week.
I have a list of "must do today" items and I can't leave until they're done - yikes!
Yesterday I went to the gym with Marc. Worked on the eliptical trainer for 30 minutes and did some stretches. I'm really feeling better about
working out. I picked up an events list at the gym and plan to pick a 5k run as a goal.
I used to do these when I was in better shape. I enjoyed them, but then just let myself go.
I talked to Marc about keeping the San Francisco trip healthy. I've decided to work out everyday until I return from the trip. No excuses.
I'll write down what I eat and make sensible choices, but not beat myself up if I go over on points.
I'm not sure when my next entry will be. I leave 3/10 Sunday afternoon and get back Sunday 3/17. I'm weighing in before I leave Sunday morning and will try to post the weight before I go.
Gotta get back to work!!!!
Yesterday I worked out for 30 minutes!
- Beth
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